I'm young, 19, and naturally still have a lot of areas in my life that I feel I need to develop. I can be a super bad communicator, I have a hard time understanding exactly what my intentions are, lack of organization in general etc... I feel like because I see myself in this way I am psyching myself out from pursuing relationships with people.
Last year this amazing girl gave me her number, and I know she's still around here after traveling in Spain but I let the offer expire by never contacting her. Over the last year I feel like that type of interaction has been repeated several time's to different degrees, where I blow it when someone expresses interest in me.
The thing is, I know there are qualities in me that I really respect and love, and I have faith that others can see those in me too. But I can't help but feel I'm straight up not ready to get involved with someone because it'll just end up as a mess like other relationships in the past have turned out.
What I feel like I'm battling with is the choice to grow "trial-by-fire" or to just spend more time alone pursuing my own endeavors and enter that realm when I really feel ready.Statistics: Posted by radicalbusiness — Thu Feb 11, 2016 1:26 am
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