So the psychiatrist resident that I'm working with, along with a make-shift drawing of the brain, connected the neuroscience behind how my brain is hard-wired to take-on too much dopamine, my ups and lows, thus causing my psychotic episodes. Being highly aroused and amused, I interjected and told her, "it's like being on co-c-coke... co-cocaine!!" to which she coincidentally was going to use an example! She did correlate to when I first mentioned how it is difficult for to read and interpret/synthesize literal works (wouldn't be able to read the entirety of 1Q84 if you paid me in Junya) - clamoring to them initially that "I have never wholesomely finished reading a book from beginning to end". It definitely explains my "racing thoughts', hedonistic impulsivity, and my inability to properly fall asleep on a scheduled time - perhaps resulting in my lengthy and depleted energy, even at times when I can get 8-12 hours of sleep, even when I want to compose a personal essay of my own sorts - a free-write becomes difficult. I also reminisce to her how I talk to a lot of homeless drug-addicts and friends of sorts - to exemplify how my personality and life narrative has shaped around my now realized physiological/psychological oddity. A cliche "chemical imbalance" if I may say. >:
Anyways, she prescribed Seroquel 25mg just to lessen my psychotic symptoms, but I'm torn about it over these past two weeks because I've been so fucking stressed out about moving back home and whatnot shenanigans I have to deal with. I mean I want to be fully conscious and at least parse around as to what I am exactly getting myself into taking something that is mind-altering and body-changing in some forms; because she is very keen on when and the side-effects that I may report once I take it. My pharmacy is unusually hounding me this long to pick-up my script and I'm still torn about it right now. :/
Does anyone have experience or know of anyone with experiences with Seroquel?
I'm also suppose to meet with a kid that is 7- or 8-years-old whom's mom supposedly has BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder), whom's dad and half-sister is apart of this home-meeting group that I participate in; they reached out to me in hopes that I could connect and empathize with him as I went to a similar ordeal - as I did share with them my experiences of closing-up and isolating myself as I reached my adolescent years. Hopefully our meet will materialize next week! I went sailing last week - got a membership that lasts until October. Everyone in my program is reasonably intelligent and well-spoken. And non-psychiatric therapist is a real nice personality to work with as well, but I am definitely giving her a lot of blow-back with my over-intellectualization. ;) Anyways because I am receiving services from department of mental health in my state; I get a discounted/disability public transportation card- I suppose this is a bonus as well.
I keep going through life with all these goddamn curve-balls, hopefully it'll make for a nice memoir that I've been touting to others about writing as far as few years ago. It all makes for an interesting narrative though! (smiling)Statistics: Posted by freddy — Sun Aug 17, 2014 3:15 am
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