dunno what to do with my life at this point (not that i have known since i was 18). i have been living in korea for around 2.5 years and i think it's been a really cool cultural experience, but i think that i should move back to the usa. i have only like two friends here now and i feel like i have to get out before my social skills completely erode. my brother is staying with me right now and we got in a bunch of fights the first few days he was here. part of that is stress and jetlag and re-acclimating to being around each other all the time after not having seen each other for like 5-6 months, as well as 20+ years of neuroses, but also i spend so much time alone that it was really hard for me to get back into hanging around the same person all the time and not just being able to do whatever i want. the only issue is that my job is doing some kind of interesting stuff that i feel would be beneficial for me to stay up on, in the long run, as i'd be learning a bunch of new skills, so i was thinking of sticking around for another six months (which honestly doesn't sound like that long), but i'm also kind of afraid that i'll go crazy in that time. i also have no idea what i would do were i to move back. i have a few possible openings, but no clear plan or idea what kind of job i'd actually like doing. this is further complicated by the fact that the longer i spend here the harder i think it'll be for me to reintegrate into the workforce.
also i was at a bar the other day and i was thinking about how my standards for girls are probably way too high because there weren't any there that i was really interested in even talking to. and that's weird because the only girl i have ever really loved was pretty far from being a 10 in the looks department. a friend of mine recently remarked that he thinks i never really got over her, which might be true but would make me kind of sad if it were, as we broke up like five years ago.
relevant:
"Authorities say the phony Pope can be recognized by his high-top sneakers and incredibly foul mouth."