by xinijia » Sat Oct 21, 2017 6:01 pm
I've been thinking about an old children's story.
A frog lives at the bottom of a well. Every day of his life, he stays at the bottom of the well, happily amused from hopping from brick to brick. On an unexpected occasion, a bird walks by the well and they begin discussing the sky.
"The sky has many clouds near the horizon, it looks like it may rain soon."
"The sky? But it looks to be a beautiful blue colour."
"Wait; how big do you think the sky is?"
"It's that blue circle at the top of the well, isn't it?"
"..."
Try as he might, the bird could not convince his new friend the vastness and endless nature of the sky.
And this was "坐井观天".
I've been really concerned about how boring life can become. I've been really concerned I might prefer living in my own well. In five years I will be 23, hopefully with an engineering degree, and thinking about what Cynthia five years ago would have wanted me to be. What would I choose to do?
I think the goal is a job that allows me to be completely remote. I'd travel the world and rotate through location to location, and my decision on "where do I want to go?" will be influenced by the seasons and coin tosses. If I miss a place, person, or thing, I can go back and see it. If I feel like seeing something new, why not?
I just want something that could make me feel intensely happy and peaceful. I want a subtle happiness that is simultaneously all-consuming. I want to go out and search for it, get to know my options by meeting different people and different moods and different atmospheres. I want to see it all.
my favourite colour is bingle bangle