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chin up and face your destiny grasshopper! only person with the power to make you happy is you

none of my pants fit properly

my feet hurt

Dude you need to leave that town

just moved for the fifth time this year (last 12 months that is) and probs gonna have to move again in september. being an adult is weird

- it gets better

i haven't been on c-t in almost a year; re-reading some of the posts i made last summer made me realize that i was actually really fucking depressed.
hitting rock bottom just means that the path only goes up from here. what helped me wasn't finding motivation to continue work but doing it anyway. having a goal, even if it's just "get out of here," can be enough to create the momentum you need.
i'm not saying you'll need a year, but i hope one day you'll wake up and find yourself in a better place

lmk if you need someone to talk to! (and anyone else tbh i missed u guys)

im in kinda a bad spot right now. ive been with the same group of friends for the past 4 years of highschool, and recently i realized how much our friendships have gone to shit. to make a long story short, one of my "bestfriends" started fucking with my ex girlfriend not even a week after we broke up. they are dating now and all i hear is about how they are "in love". ive refused to talk to him as thats not something a real friend would do. so last night, another one of my "friends" asked if i wanted to hang out, i said sure why not. as i got into the car i realized that someone else was driving his car, it was the fucker that took my girlfriend. i tried to get out of the car but he just slammed the gas. i was basically kidnapped by someone who i used to trust with every ounce of my being. at that moment i realized how toxic these people had become. so the advice im looking for is, should i stay with these people? that continue to backstab me and degrade me, or should i just go off on my own and try to find new friends? its really scary to think about being completely on my own as i really only have 1 or 2 REAL friends left anymore. anyway, thanks for reading my angry words.

I love everyone today

i hate everyone everyday

College is going really well so far, I'm really enjoying it

cleaning my apartment and packing getting ready to move and stumbled upon some letters from one of my exes that i kept but probably shouldn't have and i don't want to do anything for the rest of the day now.

what's new in the forecast today folks?

+knowledge this house will kill me/is at least incredibly damaging to my mental health is up
-hope that i'll be able to leave soon is down

My only uncle on my dad's side died about a week ago and they did the death ceremony yesterday and I feel so neutral and pretty unaffected about it all because we weren't really that close but I feel guilty for not really caring (I know that sounds bad sorry) because he's the only uncle I had and he was pretty young when he died (66).

i am feeling very happy to have this community back and thats me talking not the (legal) haze

I feel like my girlfriend doesn't actually like me very much and I don't have any other friends in college, so I'm terrified we'll break up and I'll end up wasting away in my dorm same as Freshman year. :(

You can get a new girlfriend. Trust me.

T R U S T M E.

this #worldsuicidepreventionday thing hit me pretty hard today and I'm not usually one to get emotional over hashtags. love yourselves, everybody (love)

I'm too chilled out to care about anything. All I do is listen to chill music all day

I'm quickly careening to my darkest, and I've been institutionalized twice. I quit pain pills like a week ago cause it masked my emotions but fuck being in pain is shit.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I can't keep getting put in the mental hospital. I'm in therapy, on new medicine, and the previous toxicity in my house is gone but I feel worse than I ever have. I can't keep living like this.

Being addicted to opiates seems like a better path than this. I'm gonna call my mom and cry over the phone a lot.

My girlfriend and I broke up, I'm slightly disappointed but I called it only four posts ago so I'm also a little proud about that

*edit jk i'm super sad about it, i was going to apologize for being mopey but that's like 80% of this thread's purpose so I'm glad ct's summer break ended when it did (love)

Can't stop crying

I buried my face in my cousin's cat and it was extremely wonderful but now there are small cat hairs stuck in my hair.

The past few weeks have been especially difficult for me. My anxiety's been worsening, and it's pretty hard not to feel sad on a fairly regular basis. While it's not entirely new for me and I've usually been able to somewhat force myself out of it, it's difficult since I hate opening up to people and it's becoming incredibly exhausting putting on a happy face with my family and friends. I guess it's a step forward that I'm openly admitting it though.

i've been sick since thursday THIS IS THE WORST!! my fever's gone and my throat's getting better but my ear canals feel like what a frat house looks like the morning after and i have this foul foul sick breath

i've had diarrhea daily for one week now #china

saw a qt who looked like a nerdy maggie cheung at a film screening and she left before i could attempt to say hi :(( pray for me ct

catching mad feelings for this girl I see around sometimes but barely know and will probably never approach
how 2 college

spent the last ~6 hours drinking tinnies with two mates and cooking and listning to hip hop
and now i'm back home and listening to larry heard
life is good