by b4my » Fri Oct 18, 2013 2:08 am
3 things:
1. I haven't been posting on this or any fashion forums or even really going on websites related to fashion for a few weeks, which is weird because it's been a regular activity for the past year or so. I just woke up and was really sick of the internet's approach to fashion, the whole hype cycle, the fact that there are 3 or 4 acceptable styles of dress maximum, the fact that i was trying to conform to a standard for people i don't even see in real life.
Taking a break has been really nice and it's made me realize that a lot of the time I'm a lot more comfortable in my too-big akira shirt and doc martens then anything else. Not that I'm done with fashion or anything, it's still one of my favorite things, i really really like clothing in general. But I dunno, stuff should just be about expressing yourself imo and anyone doing that should be applauded. I dunno I'm not saying this right at all but basically I think I've reached a point where I don't give a fuck what the fashion internet thinks.
(not that this matters, I'm not really a person of note here and I've posted 2 fits on the internet in my life, so this isn't relevant at all. It remains to be seen whether this mindset will make me start or abstain altogether)
2. I've been having this internal conflict recently cause I just started college so I don't have a solid friend group that doesn't give a fuck how I dress and every day I don't know whether to go out in something cool or something innocuous. Whenever I go out in raf or something I actually just get compliments but I also get stares and for the most part I just really don't like attention. Or I like attention, but only from people I would want the attention of. I get really uncomfortable when someone I don't know that well comments on how I'm dressed even if it's positive.
3. I just wish it was a fact that the world was more adventurous regarding fashion. Gender fuckery, wearing weird custom made stuff, modifying older clothing with art or whatever...stuff I'd do myself but I don't want the attention for. I wish it was just more of a standard.