by schiaparelli » Tue Dec 03, 2013 2:28 pm
i forgot to do pushups yesterday. so i broke my four-day streak. =|
i think i've told some of you this but my current boyf is aggressively healthy and fit, and so i became encouraged to do pushups. the first three days of my streak were at his house while he critiqued my form and said "come on, just one more!" and said "this is very enchanting" and "i'm impressed, good job" (jury's out on how much he was lying)
but it was weirdly fun and exhilarating so i got into the habit of doing pushups (just a few wimpy ones) during study breaks. it just felt cool to recognize that my body has some degree of power and strength to it, and i could feel myself settling into the right form and getting a little bit better at it (just a little!) and that feeling of going physically just a bit further than i think i can is so nice.
i used to feel mad self-conscious about working out because i'm super unfit and weak (and so would be too embarrassed to get better), but i think i've gotten over that hurdle and i don't care if i'm comparatively super lame to everyone else, for the most part.
i felt too self-conscious to stop tapping away at my computer in the middle of design studio to do pushups yesterday, though.
i should go to a gym.